Amanda Liesinger

Madame Amanda is out to lunch



Posted: Monday, January 02, 2012

by Amanda Liesinger
http://www.lechampiondehockey.com

I met a woman about my age at a New Year's eve party. She was a graduate student at the University of North Florida studying the gopher tortoise. Not only had fate kept me from 'celebrating too much', it also given me a chance to pick this stranger's brain. After all, I did graduate with a Biology degree and considered grad school. She was excited to be out in the field and I started to remember how much I enjoyed research. I woke up the next morning and I did just that - researched the biology projects at UNF. What so I do next? In turn, what are the possibilities?

I have always struggled with self-identity - who am I? What should I do with my life? It is really important for me to know myself and live each day expressing it through everything I do. In the last year I made decisions without too much thought because I believe in myself to do them. But Grad school? Am I up for this decision or is it impossible?

So, that is one possibility. I can't help but have my decisions warped by the changing world around me. I no longer have the mindset where the world is too big and I have nothing to do with it. I think about what the military's role will be in the new year or what our presidency will be like. I try each day not to pollute the earth and choose to conserve energy (to save money too! I think my boyfriend is getting frustrated about the heat - it's 50 degrees and we live in Florida, gosh darnit! Put on a sweater!)

The possibilities for the new year are only held back by my laziness and negativity. Little goals are the name of the game here. I think I will adapt my keys to a healthy relationship: Take things slow, communicate your concerns, and trust in yourself.
A Year From Now
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Top-level comments on this article: (5 total)
» left by Jennifer Stewart
142 days 1 hour ago.
153 fans.
I'd say that nothing is impossible, and that Grad School might open your own world up for you, give wings to a passion that's waiting to fly. Please don't let negativity stop you - it's just an idea that has absolutely nothing real about it!
» left by David Tanguay
141 days 5 hours ago.
189 fans.
Thanks for sharing your views Amanda
» left by Christofer French
141 days 3 hours ago.
74 fans.
Something like Grad School can offer the views of people who you might not share/and might share ideas with. You need not be a flaming revolutionary to have a life that matters. Let yourself ponder. Love your openness and honesty.
» left by Dianne Lehmann 140 days ago.
137 fans.
Hi Amanda.

I like the title to your article. It intrigued me a couple of days ago but only now had time to read it. If I'd known then that you had been so succinct, I would have read it then. :) I have trouble with succinctness. :)

Laziness and negativity? Hmmm. Doesn't come through in your writing. I'm going to guess that you can and will do whatever you decide you should do. Take the bull by the horns, grab that cow by the tail (cow skiing was once popular here abouts :)).

Oh, and thank you mightily for joining my fan club. Much appreciated!

Hugs,

Dianne
» left by Jack H. Schick 133 days 16 hours ago.
99 fans.
You're not alone in laziness and failure to achieve possibilities- but you're still young and have hope.
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